It’s been almost 2 weeks now since the filming and I just finished up my Day 3 recap. Something was made almost painfully obvious… well honestly there’s no almost about it… during those roughly 3 days: I do not have any passion for the field I am currently employed in. I’m just okay with what I do.
Being on set reminded me of the passion I had for wanting to be in the industry back when I was younger. I never wanted to get into to be “rich” or “famous”. I wanted to because it was so cool to be able to bring stories to life. But due to many reasons, most of which I won’t torture any readers with, I didn’t. As I told the COO of the company I work for over dinner a couple of nights ago, I must be part Vulcan. 95% of my actions, my choices in life are governed by logic. Rarely do I make a decision based on my emotions. I may make them out of stupidity but not emotion. I make them to make others happy and not myself. Wait, didn’t I just say I wouldn’t torture readers with these reason? Sorry!
As I think about Jack telling me how many people bailed on this project, I become more and more amazed… almost angry at them, for throwing away such an opportunity. Then I have to stop myself… Haven’t I been given the same or similar opportunity? How can I make sure I don’t throw this opportunity away? And I don’t just mean opportunity with this one film possibly being picked up as a feature or series. What about an opportunity to just work in the industry? Is and how would this be feasible? Something my little brain is “afterthoughting”, LOL!
Oh a different afterthoughty notes, how friggin’ cool is it to have scenes with so many established actors/actress your first time out? Even ones with an Emmy 😀 I was completely blow away when, less than an hour, Lesli learned dialogue in another language with a good accent. Okay, granted she has been acting for quite some time but I was still duly impressed! She so sweet and down to earth too 🙂
I didn’t get to act along side Scott (maybe next time) but it was fascinating watching him work. It definitely came easy to him. Once the movie is out I’ll be able to talk more about his scenes 🙂 Jack’s scenes were intense and watching him as he had to jump from being in character to being director and then immediately back in character… definitely good at what he does, too. Both are definitely willing to take more than one for the team and their craft! I hope I was able to absorb some of their knowledge in those 3 days.
One final thought… I find having done this, well mostly the acting part (such as it was), has been somewhat of a confidence booster. Never thought I could do something like that. Now that I have, it makes me wonder, what else I can do that I was always too afraid to try?